Saturday, December 25, 2010

Early Hours

Its 2.09 am Christmas morning.
I'm in the lounge, DH in his study.
Its been a day that might go down in family history as one of our worst.
My children's marriage is over.
All that remains is the dreary practicalities and grey lost dreams.
Our in-law child is devastated, and so is our own one.
There have been horrible accusations from people I would never have expected, and my child has been kicked when it was least bearable.
I am battling anger and outrage about that, too.
So
Sleepless
Tonight
I don't want to go to sleep angry
And each time I think I'm over it, it circles back at me.

Please don't feel you have to comment on this
You have all said your wonderful supportive things
And I am using my space just to vent

In a few short hours, we will have a houseful of people
All battling this thing from different perspectives
But we will also have 5 little people, dancing with excitement because Christmas is finally here.
For them, we will forget it all for a while if we can
And try to enter into their joy.

And we will remember, perhaps as never before, how precious is the gift of Christ
The only perfect One
Whose miraculous birth we celebrate today
And the grace and forgiveness He bought for us at the cross.
      

6 comments:

Ness at Drovers Run said...

When things happen, I have gotten into the habit of asking myself, not "Why?" but "What am I supposed to learn from this? What is the lesson here?" Even just reading your post this morning, I wondered what my lesson was, what the reason was I was led to open up my feed reader and read your post on this subject this morning, and I have drawn the conclusion that it was to remind me of how lucky I am, that I have the spouse that I do. We debate, and argue with one another *most* passionately, but our ability to forgive one another is something that is very special in this world I think. So even as you address your personal sadness, and that of your child, know this: - Having expressed yourself has created a ripple of GOOD, and positive thoughts outside of your immediate circle. The creation of this "good" will come back to you a hundred fold.

Thank you - I hope your day is filled with the joy and delight of the little ones, they're the ones most connected to the source of all good things, love and light. I hope you are enveloped by it today.

allie. said...

Bless you, Ness.
Really
You helped.
XX

Terry said...

I'm sorry to hear this Allie. When our children marry we thank God for the mate He brought to them. We pray for them on a regular basis that they learn to forgive each other as God has forgiven us. The storms in a marriage will come, but they also go away and people need to weather them out. I will pray that God mends this marriage and this couple lays it at His feet for repair. I'm not a marriage counselor but I do know that Jesus is the answer. I will keep your family in my prayers.

Lynette said...

I hope you had a wonderful Christmas despite this.

You know Allie, I remember when my son was lying in the hospital in Knysna with the second brain bleed. Then somebody phoned me and told me that the Lord is still in control and that sometimes things gets worse before it gets better. I was angry and did not find it terribly comforting...but it is true...the Lord is still in control and sometimes we don't understand when things get worse...but ultimately He works all things to the good of those who love Him.

much love
Lynette

Kirsty said...

So sorry to read this Allie :(
I hope that everything works out for the best for all parties concerned. Thinking of you all x x

cat said...

So sorry to hear about this. I have no more words, but will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.