Monday, January 11, 2016

Brackets and Beginnings

I am putting last year into special tender brackets
In my heart and mind
Never to be forgotten: to be quietly grieved over
And in some ways, to marvel over.

My loss is not a fraction of that which my daughter and her children suffer
But my loss is real
And the scar runs deep
None of us are who we were before Russ left us
And we don't yet know who we will be.
I have felt as though I were groping through a thick fog
Blind and lost.
I feel it lifting
And life beginning to flow again
With the tentative beginnings of joy.

And so here's to life
Here's to living mindfully and gratefully the days I have
Paying attention to the present
Embracing the preciousness of ordinary days
Here's to doing the things I have put off for years
Here's to taking risks; believing I can; thumbing my nose at my crippling doubts.

To you, wherever you may be, may 2016 surpass your deepest hopes
And bring you fulfilment and joy.


MrsLG said...

Beautiful and well said.
Here's to that year for you. x

cat said...

Love to you all Allie! And a wonderful 2016

allie. said...

Aww thanks to you both, MrsG and Cat

Gill said...

Oh Allie, I understand exactly what you mean and my hope for you, Mel and your entire family is that slowly, but surely the joy will seep back into your lives.

Your post put into words something that has been rumbling in my heart for a couple of years now. 2012 was my "annus horribilis", a year that forever changed me and left scars on my heart and my soul. It has taken me until now...3 1/2 years... to start seeing the sun again. That is way too long. This is the year I am going to make a concerted effort to let the joy creep back into my heart.

Here's hoping 2016 is a good year for ALL of us!

allie. said...

Gill, I am so sorry you have had such a terrible experience. And that it has been such a long road back for you.
But yes, here's to new beginnings and fresh joy
And amen to your new year wishes for us all

Lynette Jacobs said...

It is the everyday that should be most cherished. Sending much love and continued prayer for you, Mel and the children xx